happy birthday lauren!

something about the dynamics of this place just changed. at 530 in the morning i sit here alone and just want liza to come home. or to know she's safe. i look at the pictures of all my new friends and feel the same love i have for my old friends. i talk to a friend and feel a small disconnection and one day all the disconnects will happen and this will be home. i just hope he can't feel it. i just want to go back to sleep.





i'm scared my college friends will read this blog someday. some of them do sometimes i think. i don't want people to know it's here anymore.



it's a dear friend's 18th birthday. and she has the most beautiful soul of any person i know.