im sitting with a boy who i consider to be a friend of mine here, probably one of my better friends here and he's telling me all about this girl that he got separated from becuase of moving and stuff and how much he likes her and even though everyone says he's kind of a player i listen to him say how badly he wants to be with her and how excited he is that she might come to mason next year and i have a hard time believing it's 100% true. all boys can be "players" but can't they also be good? i wrote this in his room and i forgot about it but the tab was still up . i think i decided to write the blog when i asked if she was pretty and he kind of sighed excitedly and told me she was beautiful and then he pulled up a picture of her on facebook and she really was.



i feel loved and lucky and safe. i feel like a failure and stupid. but at least it's not forever. twenty four hours from now it'll be over and okay.