in this moment i feel that nothing is completely mine. i earned nothing that i own. i have no single person that is mine in love or in friendship. i feel a little bit alone, a lot of frustration and overall discomfort. i no longer want my old life, and i don't want this new life. i want a different life that is impossible to achieve. i want love and happiness. i want to feel excitement in the morning when i see the sun and my friends. i could use some fucking consistency.