i told myself i wouldn't do this tonight.

i can't think of any significant thoughts today. i can't think of any morals learned today. maybe if i write it like a story, and then analyze like sarah sturtz tells me to, i'll figure it out.

woke up, went to school by 8. took a history test with bernstorf because williams had a meeting or something.

then i ewnt to math and got a lot of bad grades back. we had a funny class. we blamed a lot on poland's gotee(sp) and we learned about matt penny's OTTO story. also, shelly knew about domain restrictions and no one would listen to her.

me mattie carli and shelly are going to walk around sassy for singing telegrams. its funny that we're SMAC. ahahah

i went to lit. im not scared of that class anymore. sturtz told me that she thought it was really nice and respectful to turn my work in online. i think it was nice of her to notice. i have a really smart group, but i'm trying to contribute this time.

i went to history and williams disappeared. we watched a movie called Dave and i fell asleep for an hour. i really needed it.

physics we did a lab and i sat on the floor. it involved weights and they flew. the rubber stopper was heavy. caitlin was funny. my teacher is crazy.

work was silly. it was work. i don't care.

i dont do homework anymore. my dad makes me angry when we talk about college because he doesn't know anything but for some reason he thinks he did. he also just told me i haven't done anything for college and that made me really angry. i refuse to take this shit anymore. fuck mason, that's not happening. fuck that. i'm resentful that he doesn't want the same things as me. or something as big as this, he doesn't want it to be my way. it's been his way my whole life. its my turn because now it's turning into my life.

i'm cynical today. i want my life to begin already.

this is where i want to be in a year: