whatsup

i dont know what to say anymore. because there's things i want to get out but i just dont want them to litter this place anymore. just get out of my head. go all the way to where you are and take all those damn memories with you because i want nothing to do with you anymore. just go away.


the psychic told me one of my close friends was just jealous and wanted nothing good for me. i dont believe her.

being around new people shows me that i always want to give people the benefit of the doubt. i don't want to label someone as a liar, or a drama queen or anything else that's bad. i can't do that. i don't know anyone here well enough to do that. let's not get hurt here, now.


saved texts starting with the oldest because i think i might be getting a new phone relatively soon..:

"That i will do, u kno something angela ur pretty real urself"
saved it because you were a breath of fresh air in a place that got too hard, too fast.

"Hello ! How r u ?? Everything ok with u ?? Let me know please if theres a problem ok .. Love u too much ! Remember always your my baby girl a beutiful one"
saved it because i love you more than you'll ever know and everything i'm doing here i'm doing for you. i was crying this day because being home wasn't so good back then and even though i never told you, you knew. see you soon mama :)

"I have my streamer im thinking of you!!!"
saved it because you're my best, oldest and most reliable friend. no one can ever replace you. saved it because you knew that you having that streamer would make me smile.

"<3 <3 nice seeing you yesterday stranger"
saved it because it was nicer to see you than you know. always love you, always miss you

"love you too angie! :)"
because you're the same friend that kept my streamer and the same friend that can call me angie without me not liking it.

"I heart you. Dont be sad"
saved it because i was sitting across from you. and i was sad. but this made me smile.

"ok i will be honest! i trust you so i wouldnt lie to you...it all depends on whos asking me but since its you i will tell the truth"
saved it because i guess it was significant at the time. i've looked back on this one and almost deleted it but i always decide not to.

"you're going to make me cry ange :( i'm going to miss you so much too. You are so reliable and constant."
saved it because i love you and your lack of emotions is always so surprising. not here though.

"IM SOOO SORRY! I love how you care about other people way before you care about yourself and not only that but you dont do it so people thank you, you do it because when other people are happy, you are happy."
saved it because i loved you. and because i knew you got me. and because this was probably one of the only times you ever apologized and complimented me sincerely.

"I'm elf when walter bails buddy out of jail and they're on the stairs, the sign behind them says 27 :)"
saved it because you're my best friend in the whole wide world and this made me laugh in class.

"HEY ANGIE LOVE YOUUU"
saved it because it was a total surprise. <3

"Hi i just wanted to tell you that i read your blog all the time and it always inspires me!"
saved it because you were probably one of the first to tell me this. and i didn't think anyone cared what i had to say up till that point. i love you so much.

"Thank you for everything"
saved it because i've never loved someone like i love you. and i do so much for you and i just wanted to remember that you said thank you. because you know that matters to me.

"Wow i underlined something? Dont even remember, thats cool. It wont happen again angela. Your **** was my *****. Once it happens you never let it happen again. And you WILL find that perfect person who just loves your soul."
saved it because you always have this way with words. and because i want to remember someone great and intelligent told me this.

"No problem angela... You deserved it because i think you needed to hear all that great stuff about you"
saved it because you were such a genuine and sweet person about everything. you contributed to an awesome night.

"K it's there. Btw I'm really happy we've gotten to hang out recently. You're a really cool girl"
saved it because i really liked hanging out with you too and im disappointed it all started so late.

"I think the reason our good bye was so friendly and casual is because we're close enough to know that college could never end our friendship."
saved it because i needed you to tell me that. and im happy i saved it because you're so right.

"I appreciate you more. My pinky promise."
saved it because you really rock and pinky promises are my favorite.