i think i take things too personally. i wrap myself up in my relationships and sometimes i can't focus on anything else. i've always admitted to relying too much on my friends for the lack of "normal" family support system that most of my friends have. one person says one thing and i take it to heart. truth is, i hold you, whoever you are, more dear to me than you know. and really, it's whoever you are. because my friends are my world. and you can talk to a million teenage girls and they will tell you that but i'm so different. if you know me, you know why. and if you don't know me, i don't care to explain it. I'm not mad at you, and it's not "about us". I guess it's about me in general. im learning slowly but surely that just like i wont ever take people's excuses the world won't take mine.
it's weird how we all have life in the palm of our hands. and for some reason all i want to do is sleep and not go to classes. it's going to be a long night. for some reason, i dont think i long to be with someone anymore. i long to be alone. i just want to know myself again.
just a cigarette and some sleep.
oh, and i just really want a nikon d3000 for christmas this year. please, santa? nothing else.
and another thing, i dont get why they made eeyore so sad. that wasn't cool.
melatonin is my new fucking best friend.
-talk to me about what you please. i'm always here to listen. i took it offensively. i always knew you weren't mad. i'm not sure if you know me yet, even after all these years but i have no doubt that that is changing. i'll keep this up as long as you do. sometimes i fear i'm being annoying or too much. but i do love you and miss you. and i can't tell you enough how happy i am that you are happy.
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