for some reason, i don't think i'm good at this anymore.
i've realized i blog the way i think. in short sentences or long ones or ones that have no real beginning or end. and that was fine. but now i don't know if i think that way anymore. and there was always some satisfaction in getting the words down and out but i think that age and experience is making me believe that it isn't that way anymore. maybe because i believe in action over thought so much. not that action doesn't begin with thought. but change doesn't begin without action. today was kind of weird. i was almost on an impromptu flight to phoenix, arizona.. but then we didn't go. which was fine. but not at first. but it's okay now. i saw some old friends and felt a bit disconnected. but that was okay too. good music is coming on pandora. it's always made me really happy when random stars align. i guess that a lot of people probably are excited by things like that.

i saw paige tonight, and that's always a really nice thing for me. i'm truly excited for her to go to App. she visits all of us in school and it must be weird for her. it's so nice to know she's here though, for some reason. it's selfish and i know that but it's comforting and i'll miss the weekends i come home and she won't be here. it never feels awkward and i never feel the disconnect i do with some. we talked about things tonight that changed my mind about things and confirmed my feelings on others.

i miss kathryn and maddie

i want to go back to school now that i checked on this place. it's still here and running and happening without all of us. because slots are so easily filled everywhere in the world and no matter how much you love or hate a place, that doesn't really change