but i lost them because i got home and stopped reading a letter and wiped the tears that came with them and just smiled a lot because today has been so good. it's been so good actually, that i've pushed off my homework until after this blog post so that i could enjoy it. and so good that i don't even mind staying up later to get that stuff done.
it was weird because now i have a new room, kind of. liza's whole space is different, and mine is too but only with a shelf thing of hers because it wouldn't fit on her side. we unlofted her bed and now we're going to be close to each other and she's already really happy with it. it was nice because the other day i was thinking about how at home i used to do kind things for people i love and i feel like here i don't do that anywhere near as much. and we saw each other briefly before she had to run to class and told me she wanted to unloft tonight but that she had so much work and was really stressed and she didnt know how she'd do on her test and so i walked into my room, saw the state it was in(only she will know....thanks liza. -_-) and it wasn't like i could get any work done so we got it all rolling and by the time she came home it was all done and she was so happy. it was the kind of thing i would have done at home for a stranger and it took me a long time to do something like that for my best friend at school. it just felt good to do something for someone. so then we got dinner together and some random boy asked to sit with us and it was weird but liza thought he was nice and then we walked home and i walked past the mailboxes and decided to backtrack to check my mail because a friend had been telling me to check it and i was finally down there so i did and there it was; that envelope.
and so i walked really quickly home to read it because ugh i just love mail so much. and i got back and i guess i had forgotten about the room because i opened the door and just smiled and was overwhelmed with it all and so i put down my stuff and came back to the letter after saying hello to some good friends and i got back here and cleaned up a little and saw the letter and tore it open and first noticed that it's typed. only you. and only you would date it and then tell me where you are. i laughed out loud a few times. especially about the people from new jersey because i could actually hear your voice telling me that story and i think i can almost maybe remember the way you might have laughed afterwards and then said yeah..crazy man. just like that. and i rolled around to the paragraph about you and i not talking as much and i stopped because i felt the tears forming because i really do miss you. liza actually said something about you the other day and i asked her to not because it upset me that much. and then i finished and i just let myself cry. and then i found the pieces of the sidewalk and taped them to the letter and then taped the letter next to my bed, but closer to my bed than the rest of my letters because i think its the best one i've gotten here. and the sidewalk thing was a nice touch because of our last night together. i dont know if you did that on purpose or if it was just what you chose but i thought of the sidewalk thing as our last night. your twisted night. hahahaha i'll remember those things for a while im sure. i've already told you about how happy i am to see you this way and that im really pleased that i got your letter. thanks for sending it because it put the cherry on top of today. love you, miss you.
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