happy birthday!

to amanda and to mikey and to bobby.

today was nice. i like mondays that are A days. teacher cadet in the morning is the best way to start a week. we hung up all the stars today and i hope the teachers saw them. i wish i had planned making them better because mine arent very pretty. dara wins. she played paparazzi with me on the way to our cars. sorry i didnt give you a good shot, i felt so awkward. after school, while me and carli went to get amanda a birthday present, we listened to old songs that we liked. like the honorary title. it was nice because we always have good conversations. i guess thats one of the reasons we're best friends. we all talk about college a lot now. and its coming so fast. it's going to be weird to leave home and not have her or mattie or all of the people i'm so used to. hopefully i'll have kathryn :).
today in art i thought about how when we were younger we went to the creek all the time. and tehre were really pretty trees that we called marriage trees. and me and mari used to talk about being old and married. and then one time we had a fake wedding with aaron. its all just so funny, because now we're just way too old for that stuff.
insecurities are a funny thing. whether it leads to the change in a person's personality, tears, eating disorders or suicide, its just a crazy concept. to be so worried that you harm yourself in order to make yourself into something you think is better. maybe if no one at all had any insecurities, we'd all get along better. like when you're kids. kind of like that when no one has any reserves and its all just okay. i think its true that who you are when you're a kid is who you are deep down forever. the framework, i guess. there's a lot of people i thought about when writing this.
for youuuu, my love. you dont have to lie to us. you already know this, dont you? we love you no matter what and we really want to help you. open up pretty pleasee.