it's hard to hide emotion when you're as open as i am. and i don't regret being this way, i really don't mind. but i've come to see that in college i talk down my big, emotional life events because i don't want them to define me anymore. until now, and even now is not all that bad in comparison, everthing from the past seems settled. like they got me here and that was the goal so here we are let's just not fight anymore. but i knew it was too good to be true. and here i am, stuck in the middle again. frustrated and silent. this blog is my only outlet because no matter what i tell my friends here they didnt see the emotion, don't know what happened and won't know how to deal with it. thank you for almost being thanksgiving, father time. because i am in serious need of some old ears.