until december 18th.

i ran away from you once, only to find you lurking in the back of my mind. i know you're waiting at home for me. just sitting and i know you'll always be there, no matter how many times i leave. actually you're everywhere with me. here at school, when im in hawaii with my mom, everywhere. it's such a shame though, because you used to be where i went when i needed to get away. and now i'd do anything to take back what was mine. i used to think i wanted all these people around so you wouldn't want to be with me anymore and it wasn't easy to get here but here i am. and now i want all these people to leave and you're still here. it's like i know how to get rid of you but i just can't complete those steps. you've made me scared of my own home. you've made part of me want to not be with my closest friends. i hope you'll see where things can be better for me and where you fit into all that but for now just please, please go away. and get out of my head, too.